"When Love Takes You In"
I know you've heard the stories
But they all sound too good to be true
You've heard about a place called home
But there doesn't seem to be one for you
So one more night you cry yourself to sleep
And drift off to a distant dream
Where love takes you in and everything changes
A miracle starts with the beat of a heart
When love takes you home and says you belong here
The loneliness ends and a new life begins
When love takes you in
And somewhere while you're sleeping
Someone else is dreaming too
Counting down the days until
They hold you close and say I love you
And like the rain that falls into the sea
In a moment what has been is lost in what will be
When love takes you in everything changes
A miracle starts with the beat of a heart
And this love will never let you go
There is nothing that could ever cause this love to lose its hold
When love takes you in everything changes
A miracle starts with the beat of a heart
When love takes you home and says you belong here
The loneliness ends and a new life begins
When love takes you in it takes you in for good
When love takes you in
But they all sound too good to be true
You've heard about a place called home
But there doesn't seem to be one for you
So one more night you cry yourself to sleep
And drift off to a distant dream
Where love takes you in and everything changes
A miracle starts with the beat of a heart
When love takes you home and says you belong here
The loneliness ends and a new life begins
When love takes you in
And somewhere while you're sleeping
Someone else is dreaming too
Counting down the days until
They hold you close and say I love you
And like the rain that falls into the sea
In a moment what has been is lost in what will be
When love takes you in everything changes
A miracle starts with the beat of a heart
And this love will never let you go
There is nothing that could ever cause this love to lose its hold
When love takes you in everything changes
A miracle starts with the beat of a heart
When love takes you home and says you belong here
The loneliness ends and a new life begins
When love takes you in it takes you in for good
When love takes you in
Ok. Here it is. The brutally honest side of my view of our fertility issues. Yes it's my Birthday and I spent most of my day contemplating fostering stuff. And so that made me an emotional wreck. Even as I sit here typing my eyes are glazed over from the tears that will for sure fall at anytime. When I say "issues" its simply because I have no clue what else to call it. We can't have children. Least not like most. And today I can officially say I'm absolutely thankful that we can't. I love Trent to no end and I wouldn't change that for anything. Out of that hardship came a blessing. And I always ALWAYS trusted God to do just that. Blessings in disguise. I know how blessed I was with giving birth to Trent, some woman never get to experience child birth and for them my heart aches. My heart breaks for any husband and wife going through fertility issues, struggling, questioning, breaking, crying out to God. I've been there and till this day, looking back, I still tear up. It's SO hard!!!! I can still look back and wonder why? Why did we go through that, why all the hurt, the pain, loss of a baby, what did it all mean? For me, it taught me a greater trust. I know that God is holding me tightly in His hands. And even when I hurt and I don't understand, He knows and he's saying trust me and watch whats going to happen next. I don't know about you but that gets me excited!!! See, and I could absolutely be wrong, but I believe God said I have something SO much better for you guys. A family but a family made up of children who need you more then you will ever know.
We've come across another unique situation that we were asked to consider not one, but two children who need some assistance. It's a tough situation and it will take a lot of time, patience and support from those around us. We've reached out to people seeking advice and we're praying very hard that God will open or close doors. See my heart says take them all!!! And I would never be able to turn any child away. However not every child is meant for our home and we cant, maybe, handle every situation that comes are way the best, and someone else maybe more fit. So while we were asked it maybe just like with Oliviana, a door was opened and then closed. And while I was ready to open it wide God said no...not this time. And for that I am thankful! He is in control and He has our best interests at heart.
People don't get it and many discourage it. I hear WAY too often how hard it will be and how we shouldn't take the huge challenge on...it'll be too hard and all I hear is what a lost cause some children are in some peoples eyes. My heart breaks to hear people say things like that. See we signed up for this. I never for once thought foster care would be an easy road. Geesh though, turn children away cause it's gonna be a challenge? I have to shudder a bit at that...why wouldn't a child in foster care come with "issues"?! They've been through a pile of muck and have no clue whats to come.
I trust 150% that if God opens a door he will let the blessings flow. No that doesn't mean it's not going to be hard but it means He will be there all along the way!! When I say that...it's truth and it goes right through me every time I say it cause I absolutely believe it! God will never leave me nor forsake me. If He leads us in a certain direction He will guide us all along the way. My heart breaks for people who can't see past the struggles, the hard, the difficult, the lack of, the "unfit". I'm more then "unfit" for this job and I giggle at the tasks I take on, but see God is bigger then me and all He wants me to do is be willing and willing I AM!!!!
I know that fostering isn't for everyone and I know some people commend us for what we do and some people think we're straight up crazy. And I guess it takes a little bit of crazy to do this job and I'm ok with that. Everyone might not understand it and they simply don't get it. It's ok...I don't get why people don't wanna save every child like I do. But God made us different and God equipped me for this and you for something else. All I know is God called us for this job and because of that I'm ready, willing and able to the best of my ability.
Matthew West says it perfectly in his song "Do Something"
"Do Something"
I woke up this morning
Saw a world full of trouble now
Thought, how’d we ever get so far down
How’s it ever gonna turn around
So I turned my eyes to Heaven
I thought, “God, why don’t You do something?”
Well, I just couldn’t bear the thought of
People living in poverty
Children sold into slavery
The thought disgusted me
So, I shook my fist at Heaven
Said, “God, why don’t You do something?”
He said, “I did, I created you”
If not us, then who
If not me and you
Right now, it’s time for us to do something
If not now, then when
Will we see an end
To all this pain
It’s not enough to do nothing
It’s time for us to do something
I’m so tired of talking
About how we are God’s hands and feet
But it’s easier to say than to be
Live like angels of apathy who tell ourselves
It’s alright, “somebody else will do something”
Well, I don’t know about you
But I’m sick and tired of life with no desire
I don’t want a flame, I want a fire
I wanna be the one who stands up and says,
“I’m gonna do something”
If not us, then who
If not me and you
Right now, it’s time for us to do something
If not now, then when
Will we see an end
To all this pain
It’s not enough to do nothing
It’s time for us to do something
We are the salt of the earth
We are a city on a hill (shine shine, shine shine)
But we’re never gonna change the world
By standing still
No we won’t stand still
No we won’t stand still
No we won’t stand still
If not us, then who
If not me and you
Right now, it’s time for us to do something
If not now, then when
Will we see an end
To all this pain
It’s not enough to do nothing
It’s time for us to do something [x3]
Saw a world full of trouble now
Thought, how’d we ever get so far down
How’s it ever gonna turn around
So I turned my eyes to Heaven
I thought, “God, why don’t You do something?”
Well, I just couldn’t bear the thought of
People living in poverty
Children sold into slavery
The thought disgusted me
So, I shook my fist at Heaven
Said, “God, why don’t You do something?”
He said, “I did, I created you”
If not us, then who
If not me and you
Right now, it’s time for us to do something
If not now, then when
Will we see an end
To all this pain
It’s not enough to do nothing
It’s time for us to do something
I’m so tired of talking
About how we are God’s hands and feet
But it’s easier to say than to be
Live like angels of apathy who tell ourselves
It’s alright, “somebody else will do something”
Well, I don’t know about you
But I’m sick and tired of life with no desire
I don’t want a flame, I want a fire
I wanna be the one who stands up and says,
“I’m gonna do something”
If not us, then who
If not me and you
Right now, it’s time for us to do something
If not now, then when
Will we see an end
To all this pain
It’s not enough to do nothing
It’s time for us to do something
We are the salt of the earth
We are a city on a hill (shine shine, shine shine)
But we’re never gonna change the world
By standing still
No we won’t stand still
No we won’t stand still
No we won’t stand still
If not us, then who
If not me and you
Right now, it’s time for us to do something
If not now, then when
Will we see an end
To all this pain
It’s not enough to do nothing
It’s time for us to do something [x3]
Please Feel Free to keep us all in your prayers as we continue this journey.
I love you guy's so much. Trent was a real blessing for you's. But you also have a little girl (My RyleeBug). That's what they call a millionaire family. So if God wants you's to have more foster children then so be it. But Praise the Lord everyday that you have a wonderful family & that's more then some families will have in a life time.
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