Let me just be the first to say it, it's too early to be up. Not a great morning for waking up slowly. Barking dogs at 730a.m and a kid running around like a crazy person due to the dogs barking is no fun let me tell you. Two boys were once again at our door asking to use our phone, happy to help, however my dogs are....in the nicest terms possibly not smart! And oh allergies, guess it's time to suck it up and purchase Nasonex, an expense I hold off on as long as possible. Over all I need lots of coffee to get through this morning and to simply WAKE UP!
It's been a long time since I felt like sitting here and blogging it up. But this morning I felt it was time to catch up.
We had a pretty great weekend. Attended a different church, we visited there twice before but yesterday felt different, yesterday felt like it was home. And that was an amazing feeling. We need that feeling when were at church. The people are so friendly, but we've always felt so welcome at all the churches we have visited here, people are so welcoming! The worship was nice and the message was just what I needed to hear. One draw back...Trent was the only kid under 10 and that was completely sad to me. He asks all week to go to church to see his friends and this past Sunday he had none ;( Hoping it was just an off Sunday for kids or something cause he needs to enjoy church as much as us. Love having him excited and asking to go and we want that to continue. I'm excited to try to get involved, they offer men and woman Bible studies and I'm excited to go!!! I need that time with other Christian woman and I cant wait!
After church we had to return our rental car....sad to have my heated seats leave me...wanted to tear them out and install them in our truck...SO NICE!!!! Then we enjoyed some time as a family out and about in Dubious. We had a great day!
Saturday was sorta a rough day with Rylees Mom. I'm trying so hard to keep my communication with her open but it's becoming very hard as she feels so entitled to this little girl and her demands seem high in getting what is rightfully hers. I just struggle so hard with why? Why do you want her back SO much and feel so entitled to her and yet it's been a month since you've seen her??? And she's yet to make the moves needed to get her back and yet still says, I've hired a lawyer and he says I'm getting her back! As I've said all along our goal is to get Rylee back home with her Mom, and I stand by that, but why can't she see what a precious little miracle this little girl is and want her and want to do what is best for her instead of simply wanting what is hers. Blood doesn't make you a parent, giving birth to a child doesn't make you a parent, putting your childs needs first, loving them unconditionally, financially and emotionally supporting them and being there for them makes you a parent. Something some people will never understand. This is definitely a learning process and each case will be different but it should get easier in knowing what to expect, go figure out first case is different then the norm! Praying for constant peace, God is in control and he will put little Rylee where she needs to be. Also praying for words, the right words to say when needed and duck tape when silence is the answer.
Friday we were blessed to get a new to us vehicle. A truck. We've been praying and praying about a new vehicle every since Steves explorer blew up. And I can't say it enough but what a God thing this whole situation has been from the beginning. The day Steve and Tommy went out to the woods they had two locations they were going to visit, the one was remote with no cell service and no one else would be around. The second was where Tommys wife was out logging with his employee. Nothing was wrong with the vehicle up to this point let me add. But God new we couldn't afford a new transmission, there's no possible way we could have afforded that bill. So God decided just to blow it up!!! Funny to say it but thank you Jesus!!! With Tommy on crutches I just can't praise God enough for having those boys at the right place at the right time when this happened...a GOD thing! Since then our insurance company has been amazing! We got our vehicle check in a timely matter and a check for some of the contents (cell phones and an ipod), we also had a great rental car while we waited for the check and found a vehicle. We now are in the process of deciding to claim home owners on all the tools and hunting gear Steve lost as well. Paper work is filled out so now for Erie to view it and for us to decide if after the deductible and if our insurance possibly will go up if it's worth claiming. I have no doubt God will take care of us with this as well, he knows our situation and knows weather or not we need those things replaced right now. Its amazing that through this all I've never once felt sad about losing our vehicle and gaining this extra stress, God is fully taking care of us and opening doors for our needs.
Nothing else really new...besides our new visitors, FLEAS! Yes its that season again, apparently! So back to that pain. ROLLING MY EYES RIGHT NOW!!
I've felt so much peace lately. Peace in knowing we are where God wants us and knowing he's taking care of us. Yes I have my days and I question why, but then God reassures me in some way that he is in control. We've gone through some obstacles since moving here and currently those things are at bay and I can't thank God enough for taking those worries from me and giving me the peace that passes ALL understanding! Its more about me giving control to him instead of constantly trying to fight the battles myself, a battle I was and continue to lose if I don't put it all over to God. We've lost some family friendships and I'm at peace with that. I know God knows our hearts and I know he's lead others into our lives to fill that void. He's also showed us a new church where we will be making new friendships I'm sure.
And hey it's spring and I know the warmer weather is coming!!!! Pulling out the flip flops and putting a smile on my face. While cold days are currently still here I'm gonna wear my flippies around my house and know God is bringing on the sunshine and warmer days to cheer us all up!!!!
