Lord, Please Keep Making Me

"He Knows My Name"

Spent today in a conversation
In the mirror face to face with
somebody less than perfect
I wouldn't choose me first if
I was looking for a champion
In fact I'd understand if
You picked everyone before me
But that's just not my story
True to who You are
You saw my heart
and made
Something out of nothing

[Chorus:]
I don't need my name in lights
I'm famous in my Father's eyes
Make no mistake
He knows my name
I'm not living for applause
I'm already so adored
It's all His stage
He knows my name oh, oh,
He knows my name oh, oh

I'm not meant to just stay quiet
I'm meant to be a lion
I'll roar beyond a song
With every moment that I've got
True to who You are
You saw my heart
and made
Something out of nothing

[Chorus]

He calls me chosen, free forgiven, wanted, child of the King,
His forever, held in treasure...
I am loved

I don't need my name in lights...
I'm famous in my Father's eyes...

[Chorus] 

https://youtu.be/1NHQJWdXfFE 

What an amazing thing to know....HE KNOWS MY NAME! 

 Last night I attended our church womans Bible study and we read a bit into the Samaritan woman at the well. Everyone over looked this woman, she was a nobody, invisible. And yet Jesus saw her. He loved her!  What an amazing thing WE NEED TO KNOW and fully believe, HE loves us!!! And HE is for us!  WOW!!!! That just goes right through me. I will never be invisible to my Jesus! He sees everything I do, he hears all my cries, He sees my failures and my achievements. The good, the bad and the ugly. And He loves me and ALWAYS will! I am HIS! He is mine and nothing I do will ever separate me from that!  Cause geesh I am so undeserving....

"Undeserving" a lie from satan. How sad it is that we find it SO easy to believe how very much we don't deserve because of who we think we are. Lies! God says we deserve ALL He is giving us! He loves us THAT much!!! Why can't we grasp that?! We can easily grasp how undeserving we think we are but believing we deserve something good...we just can't do that. As I sit her writing this I can't grasp this. I know God loves me but how do I deserve everything good He does for me...how? I fall short every. single. day! I don't spend time with him, I don't try to make time, I push Him away, I block Him out. So why does He keep saying I love you and that will never change, no matter what?  

One thing I struggle with on a daily basis is feeling God at my core. I pray about this often. I see Him in everything around me. I know He's there. But why can't I feel Him at my core! Why can't I have that faith like some others have that hits you deep down inside and grabs a hold of everything you are?! I can't explain in words what I'm trying to say but I wanna feel Him in me!  

I am a pretty big SideWalk Prophets fan and as I was listening to their album this morning this song spoke to me. 

"Keep Making Me"

Make me broken
So I can be healed
'Cause I'm so calloused
And now I can't feel
I want to run to You
With heart wide open
Make me broken

Make me empty
So I can be filled
'Cause I'm still holding
Onto my will
And I'm completed
When you are with me
Make me empty

[Chorus:]
'Til You are my one desire
'Til You are my one true love
'Til You are my breath, my everything
Lord, please keep making me

Make me lonely
So I can be Yours
'Til I want no one
More than You, Lord
'Cause in the darkness
I know You will hold me
Make me lonely

[Chorus]

'Til You are my one desire
'Til You are my one true love
'Til You are my breath, my everything
Lord, please keep making,
I know You'll keep making
Lord, please keep making me 

God is still "Making me" and I need to constantly be broken to be molded into who HE wants me to be. My biggest issues is relinquishing control, fully trusting God, and getting out of my own BIG head and stop thinking for some reason I'm bigger then HIM!  Some days I struggle with the broken part, how do I get there? How do I break to get healed? Oh Lord, please break me! My prayer needs to be simply that!  I look at the older woman at our church and I feel so intimidated by their faith and their knowledge...their love for our Lord. I wanna get their...I crave it and I just want it now! HA! 

LORD, PLEASE KEEP MAKING ME!!

FYI: Faith Baptist Church in St.Mary's just started a study on The Storm Inside by Sheila Walsh. Would love to have you tag along with me!!!