Beautiful

"Worn"

I’m Tired I’m worn

My heart is heavy

From the work it takes

To keep on breathing

I’ve made mistakes

I’ve let my hope fail

My soul feels crushed

By the weight of this world

And I know that you can give me rest

So I cry out with all that I have left

Let me see redemption win

Let me know the struggle ends

That you can mend a heart

That’s frail and torn

I wanna know a song can rise

From the ashes of a broken life

And all that’s dead inside can be reborn

Cause I’m worn

I know I need to lift my eyes up

But I'm too weak

Life just won’t let up

And I know that you can give me rest

So I cry out with all that I have left

Let me see redemption win

Let me know the struggle ends

That you can mend a heart

That’s frail and torn

I wanna know a song can rise

From the ashes of a broken life

And all that’s dead inside can be reborn

Cause I’m worn

My prayers are wearing thin

Yeah, I’m worn

Even before the day begins

Yeah, I’m worn

I’ve lost my will to fight

I’m worn

So, heaven come and flood my eyes

Let me see redemption win

Let me know the struggle ends

That you can mend a heart

That’s frail and torn

I wanna know a song can rise

From the ashes of a broken life

And all that’s dead inside can be reborn

Cause all that’s dead inside will be reborn

Though I’m worn

Yeah I’m worn

As I sit here and look out and see the beautiful sunshine I can't help but feel Jesus. His presence in this place. What an amazing thing to know...Our God reigns!! Yesterday was the National Day of prayer, something I haven't attended since High School. A gathering of believers and unbelievers to pour out to Jesus, how we need Him here and now. We're worn, broken, feel defeated at times and while some of us know God is right there we tend to ignore and try to just deal all on our own. Isn't that that funny part...or dumb part?! When we need Him the most we almost completely ignore Him. Least I do. A few years back I felt very defeated and worn and everyday I thought about How Jesus could fix this feeling in me...and yet He wasn't. I was, in a way, mad at Him. I just simply didn't understand. And yet when did I even ask this of Him? I didn't. I was being stubborn. It took weeks of feeling absolutely lost for me to one day break. Standing in the shower I just started balling and I finally cried out for Jesus to simply save me. And He did. I can't describe it but I felt Him pick me up! It actually still brings tears to my eye. All He wanted was for me to realize I can't do this on my own, I need Him. I know this! I do!! So why, why did it take me SO very long?! Satan is out to destroy and I was letting Him win. After that day life didn't right away get better, but everyday since I feel blessed with whatever comes my way. I know that He is in control, He loves me and if I just trust Him and believe in Him He will always pull me through. It's that joy again! The joy that is in me, because of Him, to know that All Things Work together for Good. 

With that I want to encourage you. If you are worn, defeated, lost, cry out to Jesus!