Sorta a grumpy week for me here in Ridgway. Got caught up in a bad attitude I gained from letting others negative attitudes or remarks get to me. For that I can only blame myself and kick myself in the butt to get out of this slump! I let a comment I may or may not have taken wrong eat at me.....I am a stay at home Mom and wife. I absolutely love my job!! I know that God placed me here and I am absolutely grateful for the job that I have everyday, 24\7, 365 days a year! Its probably the most rewarding job ever! Not everyone has the opportunity to do what I do or wants to do it, but I do. I love cleaning dirty diapers, vacuuming, laundry, trash, scrubbing the toilet, playing with the kiddos and watching them all day long. God gave me these two kiddos and I will do the best job I can in helping raise them. I get the job of "babysitting" my kids all day long while others may have to put their kids in daycare or a babysitting service. I'm thankful I get to do this job. You will not hear me complain about my job as Mom and Wife because nothing makes me happier then serving my family....because in turn I am serving God. He gave me this job, this task. No I am not a busy bee all day long, every single day. You may think a stay at home mom has it SO much easier then a working mom. But I urge you to keep that thought to yourself. It's a completely different thing. And you may have done both and I commend working moms, it's not something I wanna do. But don't put your nose in the air and think you are better then those of us that choose to be home. This is a choice I make, the choice my husband and I make for our family. I would never tell someone that my job is harder then yours because I would never wanna hurt someones feelings, and not only that to each his own. I'm not in your shoes and you are not in mine. I urge people to just be kind! Some thoughts are better kept to oneself.
I am a mild version of Martha Stewart or Betty Crocker mixed with a mild hippy side. I love natural and homemade. My cleaners are all homemade, my laundry soap is homemade, I use cloth diapers which I'm addicted to and cloth wipes with a homemade spray solution, homemade baby wipes for on the go, cleaning wipes, I can, freeze, process deer meat from start to finish, I garden, I cook almost everything from scratch. You wont find to much canned or processed meal items in our home. It's not that I'm opposed it's just I enjoy doing it all myself and I prefer it. I love hanging laundry out, and scrubbing my floors by hand on my knees, I use my hand and a rubber glove to scrub my toilet, I mash potatoes with an antique hand potato masher. I take so much extra time to do things that may take others five minutes to do because thats what I enjoy, thats where my heart is and I figure why not I have the time. See this is what consumes my days. That and a little 20 month old and a 5 year old. Some people hate their jobs and find they do more complaining about it then enjoying it, that's not me. I love everything about what I do and I strive to do it well and to the best of my ability!
Next month my life will consist of 2 court dates. The beginning of the month is a normal court time of placement where they will decide if Rylee stays in our home at 3 month shots, meaning in 3 months from then we will return to do it all again. At a day following that and not yet decided or set will be court for termination of the biological parents rights. Mom has been keeping up with biweekly visits at bare minimal effort on her part, but it is what it is. Mom is also pregnant again which is sad and at this point she will be urged to give up her rights or risk losing her unborn baby at birth. We had a nice surprise while getting our taxes completed. Here someone else went and claimed Rylee, so now the IRS needs to do an investigation. So not only do we have our personal taxes held up but the credit for foster families is also held up. Wouldn't wanna make an assumption on who claimed a little girl who isn't even in her custody but thats pretty hard to do. Wish she would truly open her eyes and see what damage she is not only doing to her kiddos but herself. Time to get it together. Just gotta pray for her and hope someday something will change.
Tomorrow is Friday and work outside of the home is calling my name, which means when I get home the couch will be calling my name and numbness to any activity outside of sitting on my backside will cease to exist. Been trying to work twice a week with my Dad, just helping him out at our church bathroom project. Gets me out twice a week and helps him out. Twice a week is all I will commit to and 5 hrs a day would be my max, all my body physically will allow to function with two kiddos when I get home.
I've heard lots of people complaining about winter blues, I'm not getting that. I love the winter. Time to be indoors with the family. Cozy nights, a slow down period in preparation for busy warm days a head. And the snow isn't too bad either, the ice...well thats another story! Not a fan of walking anywhere and risking falling on my bum!
So goal for the ending of this week is to smile, complain less, and concentrate on things that are important and true and kind. Social media is scary and every time I check out the things people are saying I truly wonder why?
So Be kind. Be understanding. Stop being nosy. Stand up for something worth standing for. Put others first. Be loving. Do something for someone else. Stop being an attention seeker. Strive for something better. Pray. Encourage someone. MORE THEN ANYTHING BE KIND AND UNDERSTANDING! God is so good and I struggle daily with letting go and letting God. I sometimes get caught up in my passion for people and my belief system but there is a time and place. I will never be embarrassed or offended by doing what is right but I need to always do it in love and for the right reasons....and everything I do needs to not be about me but always about Christ!
